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…into every life a little rain must fall

For whatever reason, pain has always been my greatest teacher. In my oh so human experience, it has always been pain that has brought me closer to the divine. For whatever reason my greatest lessons of love have come from the pain of losing love. In my tiny space that I occupy in this universe, I have been given the honor to experience great depths of pain, that I might understand great heights of joy. In my oh so human experience, it is only when I commune with the Spirit, that my human form makes any sense. Lessons of love, falling into my life like rain. Nourishing the garden of my heart, and much pain, to prune away the parts of my soul unworthy of the divine Spirit which exists in, and all around me.

Perception is King. It is only my limited human perception of pain that keeps me from the true value of its teaching. Every well placed lash into the flesh of my heart cutting sweet ribbons out of my human perceptions and replacing them with the divine values of love and compassion. If I have come closer to my true essence through pain it has done its job in me. The Spirit leads me out of the storm back to eternal light and love. Into every life a little rain must fall. Into every heart a little pain must cut. Into every perception a little shaping takes the place of ignorance, and to every sorrow a little healing must come. Embrace your pain…for it will love you and teach you like no other sage. In the end you love. This is the gift of pain. Love her back.

…..and into life a mighty spirit will fly!

I must always remember the Divine in mighty wisdom has tried my heart by fire, and when all the chaff has burnt, all that was left is true essence worthy of the love that endlessly pours over my life like rain. I then have the privilege to pour all of it out into humanity so that I am filled again.

Let it rain….let it rain…let it rain….let it rain…let it rain…let it rain again….let it rain…let it rain.

“The most beautiful people are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world. —C.S. Lewis

Many times in life I have found myself in circumstances which then seemed unbearable. More times than not it was because of something I did or a decision I made based on self fulfillment or self-preservation. These are the times I have created the greatest suffering for myself. Then there is the kind of pain and suffering life dishes out and says, “here deal with this”.

There is something divinely provoked inside of me when I reach the point where I lay down everything I think I know about life. I honestly have to admit to myself that there is a greater schematic at work in the world than my perception of reality. Recently I’ve taken it upon myself to take an adventure into the world of physics and quantum mechanics. I would be foolish to think there isn’t something greater than I orchestrating everything that goes on in the Universe. The really crazy part of it all is the uncertainty in all of it. Uncertainty seems the only constant aside from change.

When I see the desert God sees the rain is coming. When I see the sorrow God see the compassion, love and understanding that flows from it. When I see the mountain I have to climb God sees the view I will have when I get there. My perceptions need to shift from 3 to 4 dimensional. What I see, feel, smell, hear, and touch, are only limited perceptions. The great reality exists eternally within the realm of unlimited possibility.

When I think of the experiences in my life where there was great angst and sorrow, it also helps me to know that no matter what I am going through at any particular time in my life it is almost insignificant in comparison to the cataclysmic events that go on around me at every turn . I suppose it’s all a matter of degrees. One thing I have found to help me in getting through difficult life circumstances, is the growth that always comes from walking through the pain willingly and with faith that my spirit tempers into compassion and kindness towards others. Pain is my greatest teacher and truest friend. It’s good to know that regardless of what I experience in the mental and emotional realm, there is a spiritual force at work in me and in the world which seems to transpose my pain into love for others. All I need to do is be willing to let go of any preconceived notions that I have any control over what happens outside of the moment. In the moment there is always perfect peace. Even so; I can’t always see the greater good in the world because of preconceptions I have about life and the way I think it is or should be.There is great comfort in knowing regardless of what happens in the here or here-after there is a power that directs and motivates love and compassion in the world. This truth is undeniable.

Be well, and know that whatever you are going through in life there is someone who has been through it before you and able to weather the storm. Meditate on things that are pure, honest, compassionate. Dig deep within and you will certainly find a well of love and compassion. These are the gifts of laying down pride and self knowledge. By allowing the universe to take its course in your life we become able to flow with the stream and not against it.

“Perry Lioni”

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So take another breath for now
And let the tears come washing down
And if you can’t believe
I will believe for you

‘Cause I have seen the signs of spring
Just watch and see

Out of these ashes,
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes

“Stephen Curtis Chapman”